The last several months I have been trying to find myself, I thought taking a part-time job was the answer but it turns out it wasn't. I realized I was comparing our lives to every mom I know, there's the super woman who seems to do everything and rarely seems out of sorts, there's the friend who changes her house everytime I go there and it looks better than the last, there's the friends who work full-time and seem happy what I was failing to do was ask myself what makes me happiest? Well after weeks of going through the motions at a job my heart was not in, I made a list and guess what? I was most happiest about a year ago when I was still at home with the girls but had a babysitter coming for 2-3 hours one day every week. What happened? She moved, I started comparing myself to everyone else out there, felt guilty for not working and gave up. Basically, I stopped listening to the voice in me saying follow your passion which is to write. So the question now is how do I still find time for me yet be a stay-at-home mom again? I bet alot of you reading this can relate we love our kids so much but yet they can drive us bonkers if we're with them 24/7. My husband said maybe they should stay in daycare part-time the same as when I was working…the guilt crept in I started hyperventilating a bit and said "bbbuuuttt I won't be working" and he said "Becky you work harder than me everyday you are home with them". This was a lightbulb moment… whether I volunteer, write, clean the house or whatever it doesn't the matter I will have something that is all mine and that I enjoy.